Sunday, April 26, 2009 @ 9:53 AM

We're gonna kill PJ

the match against PJC is tmr. And i'm damn worried for the mids and the postmen. The amount of stress i'm feeling now is a hell lot. There's also the monstrous pile of homework i have yet to do, because i'm totally focused on A'divs and i've only been doing Econs work because my Econs teacher is a witch. And my ankle hurts but its better than right after the SA game.

Oh yeah, we lost to SAJC 3-0. And despite comments that we played well, i really beg to differ. Maybe they didn't see what i saw. I was quite pissed la, but seeing a certain somebody starting to emo after the match, the angry feeling just got washed away, by the waves of concern. We really have to support each other now, on pitch and off pitch. Its not like you guys have another A'div tournament to look forward too. Make this one count.

Training yesterday, i felt, was damn wasted, because i was really tired from playing at NYP the night before.

I don't see the burning desire to win in the team. I honestly don't. I see a hunger for personal glory in some, and plain indifference in some. It annoys me, though there are some who want this as badly as i do. Things i say fall on deaf ears. I emphasised the importance of double team tackling before the SA match, and no one except me and chun yang were doing it during the match. What is that? seriously. You guys were just falling like dead flies whenever they attacked. And the defence kept having to clear the ball out of our quarter. Its even more sucky when they score from short corners, because i can't do much to stop it since i'm not in there defending.

FOCUS, everyone. I don't wanna see the same mistakes for the PJ match. We can win PJ. Put your heart and soul (and some brains please) into the match guys. I'm going to scream into your heads if you don't focus.

And it sucks even more when i don't think things will work out with you. Its been quite some time now. Maybe i should just stop trying and kill my hopes.

And home doesn't feel like home. I really hope i don't carry this mood into the match tmr.

Hug me, somebody. I'm falling apart.